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I haven't met anyone like that at all, to tell you the truth. At least, I don't think so.

[Eh, oh well. He doesn't care too much.]

When you word it like that, it sounds weird. Anyway, there's nothin' wrong with it, as far as I'm concerned.

Do you think.....any of this is even real? I mean what if we're simply dreaming?

( his inquiries and doubts were either stemming from his lack of sleep, high alcohol consumption, or both.

either way, he seemed seriously concerned about this. )

Guess that depends on what you mean by "real", doesn't it? This is already some kind of underworld... I'm pretty sure it could be a dream, of a sort.

[Higgs shrugs.]

If it keeps you from fallin' into a pit of existentialism, better to think of it as real, I reckon.

I didn't think you'd have the right answer to be honest.

( the comment is idle, and although james doesn't say it, it's a compliment.

indirectly. )

Did I ever tell you what I was doing before I came here?

I don't think so, no. You said it was a place called Silent Hill, right?

That's right. My wife Mary had died.....three years ago.

( or so he thought. he won't admit that he ended her life, but somewhere in between the rising alcohol levels in his system he'll disclose more than he should. )

I went to Silent Hill because she had sent me a letter, or at least I thought it was her. I walked throughout that entire town fighting these monsters and....

I think they were especially made for me. There were other people there but they didn't know what I was talking about when I mentioned my monsters. They saw their own monsters too....I know because I stopped one of the girl's monsters there. She called it 'daddy'...

[The look Higgs gives him is one of pure disbelief.]

Your dead wife sent you a letter...?

[He looks more than a little concerned, but then James has to go on and start talking about that topic, and Higgs actually goes a little pale.]

Jesus... you said it looked like a monster?

Well I'm not sure to be honest. Some of them looked like disfigured nurses and others were just-

( while james was good at hiding his emotions for the most part [although his grim figure gave away his mental distress], he was visibly uncomfortable. the next monster would be a revelation of his sexual desires and view of satisfaction.

he hated what that place showed him and yet it was nothing but the truth. just like the tablet said- he was the oppressor. )

Legs......it was two legs stacked upon each other with....two pairs of buttocks. It would hit me with it's feet and groan when I attacked it. However there was this red pyramid thingy...it looked more human but it had a triangle for a head.

Holy fuck.

[Higgs' hands go over his mouth for a moment.]

Gonna be real with you, I'm pretty sure I prefer BTs. They're a whole lot less... freaky, especially when you've grown up knowing they're around.

I'm not sure if I prefer either, it sounds like BTs cause more damage than these monsters did. After all, I'm the only one who saw them.

( although he noticed higgs' reaction, he won't say much about it. )

Anyways I had finally reached the end of the town and realized my wife really was dead. I decided there's no life without her. So before I came here, I was sitting in my car at the bottom of the lake in that town.

Yeah, but they cause predictable damage, and aren't creepy things made of legs.

[He gives James a long, searching look.]

I thought you said she died three years ago?

[He's... very pointedly not touching the second half of that statement. Give him some time to process it.]

( here's the difficult part-

how can james explain any of this without revealing what he had done? that he had killed her three days prior, took her body to silent hill and forgotten everything about the incident?

that it was possible the letter was just a hallucination of his mind?

with a soft sigh, he took another drink. once finished, placed his hands against his head, placing his elbows on the table. )

No, I was wrong. I had forgotten she had passed away three days prior to my arrival at Silent Hill. I had forgotten everything and remembered when I saw....I saw a tape of her in Silent Hill.

[The look Higgs gives James is very long, searching, and generally maybe a touch unsettling when in combination with the fact that he doesn't say a word.

Finally, he does say something, looking... well, like he's trying to laugh it off.]

Holy shit, Jamie, and people tell me I'm fucked in the head!

I don't know how the hell you forget something like that; I still have nightmares about my daddy, and that had to have been over 30 years ago.

( the reaction isn't far off from what james would have expected- that is until he laughed it off. he understood this was a way of dealing with things, his own wife did with the disease until it began to rear its ugly head. however he didn't laugh things off or know how to.

like mary always said, he was a surly man, a little mean [but gentle deep down]. higgs' words make him reflect on himself more. he really was a terrible human and others could tell. others could see he wasn't right.

with a swift motion, james stood up and softly pushed the chair he sat on, in. he began to pull out his wallet and placed down a wad of cash- far too much for the little they had ordered. a sign he simply did not care. )

You're right Higgs.

( he says, softly. his tone is almost distant, placing himself far away from the situation mentally. )

How could I forget I had....Mary had died three days prior. I guess that's why I ended my own life.

( no apologies, no goodbyes, he simply began to walk off. it wasn't until he got closer to the door that he shouted. )

Keep the change, it's on me remember?

Edited 2020-06-05 05:14 (UTC)

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